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I am not skinny. Some people even say that I'm fat. I prefer curvaceous or bodacious. Yet whenever I look at my naked reflection in a mirror, I think the words fabulous or gorgeous even sexy and hot. So does it offend me when the girls who ask me out tell me that I look hot for a bigger woman? Yes it does. I eat well, I work out, I will never be skinny, there's too much obesity in my gene pool for me to even think about it. I consider myself lucky not to have diabetes or a thyroid dysfunction. I find it insulting however when people judge you by the exterior instead of the interior. I am the lesbian daughter of a pastor, and I refuse to go to

I Know I'm Right Beckitt Lewis Who is to tell me that I am wrong? Some say your conscience tells you good from evil So why does my mind feel appeased in the arms of another woman? Why does my heart race looking at her naked figure? But it is wrong, I will burn in hell, I will suffer eternal damnation. Today I smoked another cigarette, cut my wrist and swore under my breath Simple gestures in attempt to numb out the confusion I am a lesbian. I could make a choice. I could be miserable with a man for the rest of my life. Internal hell. Die young, most likely by my own hand. Or I could be happy with my lover, a woman Internal blis